7 years 8 month

Gonna be my stressful year before completion of my study.

Glad to have those who are so supportive enough, especially my boyfie and my brother.

Hao Nan is very supportive in term of my study and my other problems as well. He will keep giving me necessary advice, keep caring on me, keep making me happy, keep loving me, keep surprising me in every moment.

Yes, in term of all this, he satisfy me with some "To be my Man" criteria. Feel grateful that even though I lost someone that is great enough to be a part of my life, he send  another angel to protect me on behalf of him.

He protected me so well and always be there when I need him, just like my past. My past has changed me a lot and my present improve me a lot.

I still left one more mission to be done - to achieve a good result. He believed that I can get a good academic's result and thus, discouraging me to be a better one. Hopefully, you will be able to see my hard work without you.

Like usual, every year, I will send a message asking you how are you. I know that no one will reply me. But, of course, with the advancement in technology now, your phone number are taken by anonymous. When I saw that my message was received,it is quite scary.

The song that you like to hear and sing "kiss you, goodbye" really end up in this way.

If i tell that I didn't miss you, you won't believe it right, even your sister also ask me: you sure won;t miss him? you sure won't cry because of him? Yes, some moment I will, Sometime I hope that you will be there as a friend or no matter what we will be now, you still can be the one just like this chorus part of  one song :

能不能繼續 對我哭 對我笑 對我好 繼續讓我 為你想 為你瘋 陪你老 你好不好 我好想知道

And there still a lot of mission that you not fulfill before you choose to leave. I am here to complete everything that already been promised, include to achieve a better result in my study.

你说过的诺言 还来不及实现 自己一个人 站在这原点 这离别太心碎 我们能不能拒绝 想回到那一天 至少让我再次看你一眼

Just to thanks for sending someone good enough to be in my life. I know you like to see I smile. With him, I laugh a lot, smile a lot. You are my past, and He is my present, hoping him to be my future as well. Thanks for making my past such memorable. Everyone have their own past, and my past was with you, such great memory to be with you. All your presents always with me, no matter where am I, I will keep bringing it...

And just to tell you : I am happy enough, to be take care by someone that love me so much, and to be take care by you in the past.

Thanks for your passion and love

27.03.2015

7 years,

If you ask me will I still cry in this day？

I will say I not sure.

Sometime I can be very crazy,

Sometime I still can laugh,

And sometime, where there are no people around me,

I will cry.

26.03 is nothing for other,

but its mean a lot for me.

I admit that it is my memory,

A beautiful memory indeed,,

The beautiful things that I will never forget,

Forever....

If you ask me Do I love him?

I will say, yes, I love him.

The one that always give courage to me

If you ask me Do I love Ng Hao Nan?

Of course I will love him,

Cause they are totally different in personality

So, they can't be compare.

When I saw someone's personality is similar to Jing Qi,

My heartbeat jump very fast,

But it is only the first impression,

And I know I can't see other as him as well.

Everyone different.

I am happy that I stay happily now,

With many people that loving me,

Around with me,

Visible or Invisible,

I know many people are trying to protecting me,

Directly or Indirectly,

Thanks you.

Sincerely,

Charity Chien

15.03.3015 Graduation

Graduation,

Maybe many of that didn't care too much,
But I think it will be the day that I want to have in my life

It is the hard-work that really payoff when the moment you graduated,
It is the beginning of the true journey.

We knew that our life is too short,
Graduation is a date that you can't forget,
You can see people that are loving you come far away to give you support,
That is what I wanna to see when I graduate.
Hopefully, there are a lot of them will attending.

People are busy doing all the stuff,
But when they can put aside all the stuff and try to attend your big day,
I think that it will be the true friends, true family that you want to have.
I learn that from other people graduation day instead of mine.

Happy graduation to my room mate and my housemate,
You all deserved to have the day in your life,
Its hot,
But its the happiness that you will never have.

Happiness wont come directly if you didn work hard work it,
I am glad to have you all to participate in my life,
I am here to wish you all,

Congratulations,

Happy Graduation Day,

Wishes you all stay positively on the right track in your life,

Wishes you all all the best,

And thanks, being a part of my life.

Sincerely from my heart, although you all still dunno. Haha

11.03.2015 3.45am

Insomnia again,

Not for study this time,

But for being laziness...

Being laziness,

and make me suddenly crazy,

creating a nicer blog spot,

Yea, 

In midnight,

I know I only miss 2 person in my life,

My grandma and my memory 劲企,

Yea, honestly,

In the midnight,

when all are on bed,

I know that they are the both that beside me,

Supporting me when midnight arriving, 

Glad to have them in my life...

And I am glad when the daytime arising,

There are others that support me,

Especially the one that always care of me, Mr. Ng

If you ask me whether I still remember CJQ memory,

Of course, I will,

Even I change my phone for a lot of time after he is gone,

I still can remember his phone number.

When the big days come, I will still send a message to him,

The big day such as his birthday, our first day know each other, when he is gone,

But for sure, I  know there wasn't any reply.

If it is replied, for sure it is a scary thing.

One thing that I can't remember anymore is how he look alike....

And maybe it was my past time, my memory....

Don't ask me to forget,

Because it is a part of my life,

A part between him and me,

A part between him and my study,

And a part why I study so hard now.

I always thankful to him to make me who I am today.

Although I know If he still alive,

For sure he will get a better result than I am today.

Thanks to god for always let many good people to support me,

Although there are still some people in the world that still thought me as naive,

Maybe people will say I am not fortunate than other,

But one thing I know,

I always get the right person in my life, to support me,

Include my current Boyfriend as well,

That supporting me through all way

Although sometime there are some misunderstand or 

even not reaching the same agreement,

But we manage to fight together,

to overcome the time, the distance we had.

CJQ is the one that inspire me to study hard,

to be like him,

And for sure NHN is the one that supporting me now,

Ask me not to stress, ask me to sleep early, and ask me to have a good rest

instead of thinking too much...

For sure, I hope that our relationship will go through a long journey,

I hope and wish that,

Because get hurt from an unfortunate thing make me trauma,

And stand up from unfortunate thing need a brave attitude,

There are always some unavoidable causes in our life,

I wish and hope we will stay together forever... 

3.6.2015 3.56am

People ask you do you feel exhausted？
Yes, I am actually,
But that is the life,
I think positively.

The route in my life would not be easy,
The others too,
Do not think only you are the one who suffering,
Everyone is suffering.

I am not born to be a very clever girl,
but I am glad to be a hardworking girl,

I don't like to talk about my result actually,
no matter in sport or study,
because I do it for myself and my family,
Not others.

People always say my life only badminton and study,
People would not know that you still like to shop around, travel around and etc,
People said I had no experience in working,
People said my life no entertainment,
but actually, they don't know a lot of me.
So, stop giving comment when you do not know.


People always ask me: Do you finish study?
I don't like to lie,
You never know i had a bad memory,
If I said I only finish studying for Chapter 1, because I need 3 or 4 times to get all the things in.
If I said yes, than yes. If i say No, than No.
People who have study with me before will know that I keep repeating the same chapter before i proceed the next one.

When there are some buzz behind me that keep helping to promote my results,
I hope to ask them a question : Why don't you all just promote your result?
Its my result, not related to you, and not related to others too.

I don't like people taking me to compare with others,
because i experienced it since i were born,
I don't like to be rank,
Even the people result is better than me,
I didn't care at all....

Tomorrow

I thought that I will be happy enough,
But No,
Since I plan to come Sg.Long and continue pursuing my study,
I know, I lost so much,
Lost the time with my lovely one and my friends that I know in Kampar,
But when you already accept this life, you can't regret anymore.

The true friend at here not much,
only housemates, roomate and 2 buddies that always accompany me
But now, feel lost one of the buddy

I am glad  that he finally find his true love,
I am glad that I am the one that he will share with me,
And I am glad he find his happinness.

Just that sometime, I made it a distance.
I hope not to interrupt them,
I hope that they have their time together without consider my feeling,
And I just hope that they will be always together

Another buddy always no go for class,
Now, always walking back lonely,
Walking alone the street,
Thinking of I will never walk alone if I am still staying in Kampar,
Thinking of the one that I love.

Tomorrow is 8.8.2014,
Its a history in my life,
Always and always,
when this date approach in my life,
Its make my life miserable,
But thanks for making me tougher,
I know that you are watching on me,
far away... far away...
Just to tell you, I am happy with my life now,
Tomorrow is the day that I will make myself smile,
Just like last year, I never drop a tears,
When someone replace you.